Grasping lies

Hi.  My name is Elaine and I am a legalistic.  I struggle daily to believe there is grace over rules.  I struggle everyday to believe I don't have to be perfect to please God.  I struggle everyday to not hold my world and the people in it up to a standard that God does not even require.  God requires love, faith and love - why can't I be satisfied with giving and receiving these?

Today I am going to try to live knowing truth is real, my feelings are not.  Truth will stand the test - my fear will not.

I guess too I am coming to grasps with the fact there is no conquering this problem on this side of heaven.  I need to learn to live here with joy and hope in the things to come in heaven (which is the only place my expectations can be met).

Paul, how did you do it?  I would love to sit and talk with that man.  I want to know the man behind the words, "I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do." Romans 7:15  LOL as I write this though I realize I probably know hundreds of people who say these words in their heart everyday!  I sit in one of those ah ha moments right now where I picture that we are all grasping, all trying, all desiring to grab God's hand as He reaches out to us.  The only thing keeping us back is whatever lie we are grasping hold of with our other hand.  My lies circulate on a schedule of about three main ones in my life.  1. I am not good enough  2.  It is MY responsibility to present everyone in my family as perfect therefore, my job to work on them everyday  3.  Change isn't possible

What is your lie today keeping you just far enough from grabbing God's hand instead?