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Monday, February 7, 2011

Ice is Gone...Back to Work...

So I made it to work today and to give testimony to how thankful I am for the provisions God has made in my job I write this post. Since we moved back to Dallas I have been on a career / identity roller coaster. { This might be a little lengthy in information but hang in there please because so much of this leads to the entire reason I am blogging this } When Jerod and I moved back to Texas from Nashville I immediately (like literally immediately - we moved here on a Saturday and on Tuesday ) started working at Republic Title as a temporary receptionist at the Lakewood branch office. I was going to work there while looking for a job in my field. After months of looking, interviewing and not finding anything that fit what I was looking for I went full time as the receptionist there. I never in million years imagined myself working there. This is the company my Dad has worked for since I was like 18 months old and I spent high school summers working for him, but we don't always end up where we expect...amen anyone?!?! After a year there I moved up and became an escrow assistant and then a year and a half later I went to work in our commercial division doing 1031 exchanges (no need to even explain that because I only did that for a year before moving on to a commerical escrow assistant). Then I got the break I was unknowingly waiting for..a marketing position back at the Lakewood office. I started there in June of 2008...I loved it. Planning parties, taking clients and potential clients to lunch and dinner, start non profits that generate business, etc. all things I LOVED doing. In September I found out I was pregnant and kept working as hard as my body and emotions would allow. After having Cana I went part time and it wasn't feasible to do that job to its fullest part time so I resigned...months later after working myself out of my responsibilities and through a merger, I finally ended up working in a temporary situation with my Dad in the accounting department at our Corporate office. I never thought this would be what it became but I loved doing it. There was so much freedom in black and white answers, being done with tasks at the end of the day and taking nothing home with me mentally. This move let me start to really be me at home...I had time to create, craft, paint, decorate rooms, design rooms, etc. I am so happy right now and last week found out that I get to permanently stay in this department. God has such a funny way of weaving us through such webs to get where we can be our best, but I truly give Him all the credit for getting me here. There is not as much identity in this job for me to claim and be "proud" of but the return is the blessing I have of finding my identity in the gifts and the things God made me to love. I have learned that I am good at more things than I am supposed to commit my life to doing and it took me a long time to figure that out. It doesn't have to be about money, it doesn't have to be about being popular, but it does have to be about peace. Today as I was shredding papers (not the most glorious task)


I was so thankful that I get to wear these to work now...
JEANS...I swear I am so much more efficient at work in jeans...
and I have time to go to Hobby Lobby at work and pick up a few fun things to do with Cana tomorrow...and a few fun things for me too :)


All that to say...I am so thankful for the journey God set me on years ago. I am thankful that He allows us some wiggle room to mess up and to find our way again with Him because it is oh so sweet. I have found freedom from my brain, from perfection, from people pleasing, from false identities, all by letting Him free me up to have time to create. Art, colors, making a home beautiful and personal, many things make me see God in these things and allows me to believe that there is so much more to life than a Job. This blog is for me to have the opportunity to share with anyone who happens to read that God is pleased with creativity. God wants me to slow down and take time to teach Cana that there is beauty in more than careers and teach her how to enjoy the beauty in the world in a Godly view. There is so much more for me to share how I came to this but for now I want you to just know I am happy where I am.

2 comments:

Kristen said...

i have been enjoying reading your blog so much that i've forgotten to comment and tell you so. welcome back (in more than one way), friend!

Ashley said...

Awesome post friend! So nice/wonderful to hear the joy in your words!!